starting out

Since I was a little girl I always wanted to be a Mom. Now that I am a Mom of four, I am overwhelmed, lonely and bored. I love being a Mom and I love being able to stay at home with them but I need more. My husband works 12 hour days and so it is like I am a single Mom. I didn't finish college so I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know very many people where I live so my life consists of cleaning, taking care of my two year old and running around to my other kids' school and athletic functions. Everyone's answers for my issues is go out and meet people, I am not very good at that. I guess I just need to figure out what will get me out of this rut.